So, Here I am..........Starting a new. I relapsed in May and had to start my quit over. I was at 96 days......wow....that's hard to write! I have just now got the spirit to write a blog and confess, I'd been keeping it all to myself with the exception of a few exers. I know that I and I alone chose to smoke, I chose to blow my quit, and now here I am choosing to get my butt back in gear and do this right. I thought, "I'll just keep it to myself and reset my clock." Because frankly, I didn't want to hear from you guys what I was saying to myself. That it was the stupidest thing I could have done and that I knew better. But, it's ok, I need to hear it, although, you guys couldnt be any harder on me than I am. But it is the reality. I want to be honest.
My point of finally blogging about it today is that I need to know how to get my motivation back. I know there are some awesome exers out there that relapsed before finally making it to their forever quit. Tell me how, after relapsing did you get that power back? I still have it, but after relapsing it just seems so hard to muster. It's just like falling to the very bottom only after being at the very top. How do I get the motivation to start climbing the ladder again? I should have came here before I relapsed and asked but I screwed up, so here I am now asking for your help. I am quit, but I just need some advice on getting that oomph back and hear some words of encouragement.
Thanks yall,
Leisha
