Well said Thomas...I can only hope to be as successful and comfortable as the elders...and I work hard on it every day...some days are doable and some days are monstrous. I'm always great full that I got through another day successfully.
I too am a worrier, have an 86 yr old mom that I care for...a husband who is gone away on business at least 2-3 weeks out of the month..
True, I can't be active 24/7...so I take time to meditate during my craves...ie..brain is healing the addiction wound that has been there for 40 plus years. That is a long time..and I knew from the get go it wasn'tgoing to be pretty, or easy.
I educated myself, stumbled upon this site, heard the good, bad and ugly of others who are possibly struggling, and those that are cheering from the mount!
I have to focus on what I am great full for...God, family, house, food, shoes on my feet...and my Dr who recognizes that this is an addiction, and has prescribed what I need at this time....
I'm 128 DOF, and want to continue to be free of this addiction, and just pray, that my elders are right in saying...it will become a slight memory that will be more tolerable. I'll become less anxious, and stronger with the good times and stressful times that will enter my life. There are times when I am literally sick to my stomach. ..but am confident this too will pass as I cross over FROM NML.
I have to be still and remember what this addiction may have, or has caused me.
As always, keeping it real one day at a time.
K
