Back on the wagon - Day 2

[dpete]

Well...68 days ago I quit smoking...and it lasted for roughly two weeks.  Then I quit wearing my patch..and it went back to one a day...and so on and so on...until I was back to my old habit.  Morning coffee...three cigarettes....lunch...two cigarettes...after work...a cigarette on the way home..then home...a cigarette to unwind..then dinner.and a cigarette after dinner to settle the food...then one more before bed...I was up to 8-10 cigs a day.  I'm 48 years old...I saw my sister die at 48 of lung cancer...and I kept on smoking! 

I feel so stupid...but, I think with the motivation I'm getting on this website...and knowing that I'm not alone in this battle...I can kick this addiction in the butt!!! 

Day two...back on the patch...only this time I'm not going to think that I'm over it quite so fast.  I think each time I have tried to quit..or quit...I learn alittle bit more about myself...so I don't regret not kicking it those other times I tried...because they've helped me see that this is really an addiction...not just something that I decide to do..but something that I'm being driven to do.

[Yaya2.6.10]

Feeling stupid is not allowed here. I watched my Mom die of vascular disease. My baby sister has heart issues. Thought it couldn't happen to me until a diagnosis of a severely blocked carotid artery. I started the Chantix the next day and am on Day 5 of my Quit. I refuse to do the woulda coulda shoulda talk. I must do this now for myself and am telling myself that over and over. Yeah, you gave yourself credit for learning something about yourself each time you try to quit and that is absolutely right. Remember, you aren't being driven by anything but yourself and the need to take care of yourself. Sorry to sound preachy, but you hit one of my hot buttons.

[kaki2grl]

Dont  feel stupid, We are addicts - and an addict's brain is wired to trick us into giving it what it wants. No matter the cost to our health or the health of the ones we love. We just have to prepare ourselves for the fight  this addiction will put up. We can beat it, keep the quit!

[butt-kicker]

Good for you for getting back into the game of life here!

Yes, cigarettes are the "cause" not the "cure"

Also, it IS a long slow process to really feel like we have this thing beat. Realistically I am giving myself at least a year to even feel like I am truly over this completely. I know I will never be 100% free, but as long as we can choose to not light up or Never Take Another Puff Ever, then we know we can control the one thing we let control us for so many years.

It is an addiction and remember N.O.P.E. (Not One Puff Ever)

Congrats on making it this far! Stay Strong & breathe deep!

Diane

[michael105]

GIve yourself credit for coming back! I know what I might have done...just said "It's hopeless" and kept on smoking. You need to quit for you...don't forget that. And what I have to keep remembering is that the pain of quitting isn't endless; it will stop. But we are all addicted to nicotine. Like any addict, we have to learn to live without the drug. That takes time, and we are often very impatient with ourselves, and that gives us an excuse to start smoking again. We get everything confused.

So, welcome back. I'm on patches, too. Some of us need a little help, so don't let anyone tell you it's not a good idea, or that you're somehow weak. I tried one day without patches, and I knew right then it was either get back on them or smoke. I chose to buy more patches (at a lower dose). I am glad I did. Anyone who doesn't like that can go to hell. I need to quit.

Keep the Quit!

~Michael

[anacondahead]

2 days is wonderful!!!! When you decided you could have just one per day - that was a very important lesson!! No, you can't and neither can any of us. WE ARE ADDICTS AND WE THINK LIKE ADDICTS. Someone in alcohol recovery can't have just one drink. I agree with YaYa - you are being driven by yourself and only you can take control of your own destiny.   Choose health! Choose life!  We are here - blog us, we'll listen.

Best wishes to you!

[dixiebelle]

Keep up the great work and stay strong.  I quit last summer with Chantix and was golden for about 4 1/2 months, even through the loss of my fiance's job.  Then, thinking I was fine, would have one with friends here and there, until I went to one a day, then so on, then finally broke down and bought a pack.  This was over the holidays.  Speaking to a friend who also quit with Chantix, she made perfect sense, which I will remind myself of everytime I think I may smoke "casually".  People who can smoke casually never have to officially "quit" b/c they don't need it on a regular basis.  I'm addicted, which means I have to "quit", which in turn means that I can never smoke "casually" as some others do.  I have now begun my second round of Chantix and am on my second day, doing ok.  I am committed to being smoke free for my wedding in a month.  New chapter in my life & I will do it without cigarettes... not even one casually!!!!  Good luck and congratulations for making that wonderful decision again to try=)!!

[jennifer0822]

Hey Missy!  Way to go!  We are making it!  I think one key thing we all need to remember  is I don't think you're ever over it.  We feel that way, but deep inside the addiction is always there and when we take even just one hit we start reigniting those receptors and, well, we all know what happens then.  Do whatever you have to do, girly!   Keep the old man away from you when he smokes and tell him he's sleeping at the office if he doesn't!  HAHAHA!!    Use the websites, call and/or send me a text......I've found that even just typing your feelings seems to really help....but send me a text and I'll send you back some support!!   I'll talk to you again later!!   Keep up the good work girly - you are soooooo worth it!!!  🙂