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Back for the last time...

barbara16
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‎07-26-2011 05:41 PM

I have quit and relapsed so many times.  The longest time I've quit was for 3 months.  This has been a horrible battle for me.  When I woke up this morning I put the nic patch on.  I've had it next to my bed for several months now.  For the longest time I've lived with constant throat pain and yet still smoke.  Why--I just don't know...  Well, part of me knows--my heart is broken because my kid doesn't talk to me and I have no contact with her or my grandson..but there's nothing I can do about that..

I have the power to choose to smoke or not.  This is why I am here.  I know I can quit but don't know why I relapse.  Maybe if I'm fortunate enough to meet some people who can help me along the way I can keep my quit.  Can't go to meetings because I'm disabled and can't drive...

With tears in my eyes and pain in my heart I am asking for help.  I know that there are good people here and hope to meet some. Honestly I need help with my quit--I can't do this alone.  I hope and pray that this time I'll keep my quit for good.

Thanks so much for listening.  I just had to get this out and hoping and praying that I can do this--for good!

~Barbara~

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Alice23
Member
‎07-26-2011 05:47 PM

Congratulations for your decision to quit.  I know how tough it is - we all do!  Making the decision is half the battle - now it's just time to make that decision day in and  day out that you are no longer a smoker! 

This is my last quit for sure!  I have made this decision once and for all .  I am 85 days in ( as of 8pm tonight) - and if I can do this ANYone can!  If you quit for 3 months before - you can do it again - and do it for LIFE!

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mojo8
Member
‎07-26-2011 05:48 PM

Not one last time but AT LAST you will make this quit work and put yourself in God's hands and educate yourself on quitting

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flossiemaeal
Member
‎07-26-2011 05:55 PM

put your mind to it and you can do anything.congrats on your quit,NOPE.you can do this.

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roger3357
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:23 PM

mybe you should try something different, have you used the patch all these times, mybe you should go cold turkey, i know f me if i used nic patches it would have just delayed my urges forever, right now i am a little over 60 days and have very little urges, i smoked over 30 years and never been able to stop before this time of going cold turkey, when i failed i had used things like patches, gum welbrutrin, chantix, nothing worked for long except cold turkey

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TheNewMe_Jo
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:25 PM

 Today is Day 1 for me. It wasn't as bad as I thought.

I found this site a few months ago,the closer my quit date came, the less I got on the site. I was running away, hiding, bla bla

I walked to the curb yesterday mornin, to take out the trash,barely makin it there, struggling to breathe, that was hard enough, THEN I had to come BACK... I felt like I was havin a heart attack, got inside, whew and could barely breathe.

I can relate to the crying, the feelin in your heart. Its a sad sad feelin, been feelin that for a long time.

Today I embraced my new life, no matter what happens.

Its Sooooo easy to smoke, Its NOT so easy living with an illness.

 I was diagnosed with Emphysema yesterday.

My lungs wont get better, but they wont get worse ... I caught it in early stage...

save yourself NOW!

I prayed ALOT!

I put the patch on last night before bed...

I will pray that tonight, YOU will put that patch on and join me...

((HUG))

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tamarale
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:29 PM

https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/blogs/jonescarp.aka.dale.Jan_2007-blog/2011/06/26/what-to-expect-...

You've been there before, you can do this. Just commit to one day at at time and do whatever it takes to honor that promise to yourself. You're sooo worth it! Hang in there. Gets better.

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jojo_2-24-11
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:40 PM

Hello Barbara, welcome to the site, You can do it, I feel I got a second chance at life, smoke-free.It does get easier and easier to not smoke as the days and weeks pass. Educate yourself on this addiction and come here, lots!

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Strudel
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:41 PM
Barbara - Welcome! Congrats on deciding to quit! You have come to the right place! The support here is great! I smoked for 40 years and I quit 408 days ago - by coming here, reading to prepare (see below) and staying here in order to stay focused on my quit!! It has worked - I love it! You can too!! Stick around....and READ! http://quitsmokingonline.com/ and Allen Carr's book - "The Easy Way To Stop Smoking" - free download - http://joga.365.lt/Allen-Carr_Easy-Way-To-Stop-Smoking_Download-free-PDF-EBook
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Ex_Nancy
Member
‎07-26-2011 06:45 PM

Hey Barbara, I've read your history a bit and can see that you want to quit but can't stay quit. At the same time you are very sensitive and don't like criticizm....So if you want to quit smoking this time and stay quit, keep an open mind and listen to the words needed to help you even if you feel offended. We do not mean to offend anyone here but do tell the truth......With that being said please let me say 'welcome aboard !!!'.......and read,read read to understand this addiction. The only thing you need is a solid mind-set that you don't want to smoke....Nancy

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barbara16
Member
‎07-26-2011 07:33 PM

I am very grateful for all that have taken time out to share their words of wisdom.  Each one has touched my heart deeply and I am very grateful that you've taken time out to share with me.  The one thing that I have learned from each attempt is that I need to stay close to this site.  I believe that if I do I will be able to keep my quit.  The desire and fight is here. 

Again, "Thank You!"

~Barbara~

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