My boys came yesterday to see me. It was a really good day. I laughed so hard I almost peed myself. That felt good. Today has been a good day. I have been really tired and draggy all day, but I am still dieting, watching sodium, sugar, calories, fat and increasing protein. In the last two weeks I have lost 12 lbs with most of that being water weight but I will take it. I was retaining, anyway.
I have read that, quitting smoking can cause some odd symptoms of tiredness. It could also be my health issues, but anyway. Today was rainy so I couldn't get outside. But we decided to make a hamburger tater-tot casserole. It is baking now. I will only have a very small portion because it is loaded but I have made room in my calories to treat myself today. Usually it is deli turkey sandwiches on diet bread with lettuce and tomato and spinach, fruit and a salad during the day, then occasionally I make a protein shake to provide some extra protein for upcoming procedures for proper healing.
What do I think about not smoking now? It feels good to have that dirty monkey off my back. Cigarettes cause a lot of smell and then there are the ashes that go everywhere, not to mention the bad smell it leaves on my breath and clothes. It feels good to smell better. I am not coughing as much and when I do cough after a neb it is productive, short and sweet! It don't wake up every morning and cough until I gag now. I am thankful for that. The urges are getting less and less. Once in a while it pops in my head like a de-je-vu, but I just remind myself that isn't me anymore and quickly think of something else.
I did my surgery pre-op videos for patient ed. I stopped looking at my patient portal for the time being because the more I looked at it, the more stress I felt. I am just taking a day at a time and trying to do enjoyable things. I hope everyone here is doing good.
