Just saying I've been alone for a month now, do to tight restrictions here in Winnipeg. I order my groceries online, and I can only see one other person. Turns out that will be my grandson Caiden. He is coming here on Tuesday to see me.
I have to put all my prescription drugs away, cause I'm not saying he'd take mine, but the temptation has to be removed. His parents are splitting up after Christmas, and my daughter, will be coming home to live with me.
Rent free. If I can give her a hand up in this world I will. I'm worried about how it's going to work out between us (she's very difficult to live with) I kept the house so if my daughter's ever needed a safe place to go they could.
Needless to say I have struggled and struggled with my smoking addiction. it could be a good thing if she moves home, and then I will have a purpose again. Still this is life after Brian and I've lived two years now alone.
He passed Jan. 1st 2018. So I will be starting my third year without him. I still dream about him, so it's like he's not really gone. These days I'm pretty much tired, of taking care of myself, but I will. Smoking, yeah, smoking, never liked it much, but it did much to keep me going, after Brian died. I have been successful in small quits, of 4 or 5 days,
I envy those who are able to keep it going. I will too.............don't want to die a smoker. I've been around here for a long, long time, Each day reading the blogs, and continuing on. If you want this it can be yours, and I want this.
So that is the solution to my problem, yeah, I really want this!!! I will mAKE IT OUT OF THE WOODS yet!!
Sorry, I was just rambling on to beat a crave.
