After relapse

[DANIELA040220]

Sorry..I got side tracked and kicked off my path. I smoked again. But I'm back and smokeless for one day. I don't think it's necessary to give you any details of my relapse. So, I've learned that I can be smokeless for 2.5 days but then I relapsed. So, I came up with some coping skills in the meantime. I just finished drinking the mountain tea that my mom bought for me. I love it! It's so relaxing, just great for winding down after a busy day. I rediscovered my love for music and finally admitted to myself that I like Halsey's music. Amongst some other female musicians. So, I caught up on one of the amazon shows that I'm watching and talked to some people I know about my feelings. It turns out that because of my emotional illness, I have to try extra hard to feel calm. I put a lot of effort into staying balanced. Sometimes I need to pay attention and calm down before my emotions get too hightened. But I've had a pretty good day so far. Looking forward to going to bed. 

Good night guys, 

Daniela