This week has really been horrible! My anxiety has been off the charts and I cannot believe have not smoked at all. I have thought about it at times, and I reason with myself that even if I smoked…my problem would still be here and I would be in no better position than I was before I smoked a cigarette. That really seems to help me through those moments when I get to feeling like I will not be able to control myself.
When those times do get rough and I really consider smoking, I remember my past quits. The moment I lit that cigarette and inhale that smoke, it is awful. I mean really awful… when I start smoking again after an extended period of time, I don’t like it at all. It isn’t that wonderful feeling of relief like, man I needed this cigarette. It is more like this really sucks but I want to feel like I did before I quit when my smokes would help me cope with my stress.
It is the emotional relief I am looking for at that time and it doesn’t really come at all. I don’t get that comfort feeling from the 1st smoke, so why will I ruin what have accomplished so far & go smoke? I will not lose this battle…I refuse to give in & I will prevail!
Stay Strong my friends & thanks for all your help!
