I am back from my trip seeing my mom and staying with my sister. Without details, there was a lot of drama. Out of the Blue, I had a disagreement with my sister that caused a cigarette/smoking came to my mind. I couldn’t believe the feeling was so strong…I went out the door and took a walk and kept telling myself what I learned at the Ex site “a thought is not an action”…I was always a “doormat” for my family, and when I quit smoking, i spoke up for the first time and my family, especially my sisters can not handle how much I have changed. I used to agree even if I didn’t really agree in my head. I have grown with this quit and speak up. Not a good thing with my family. Anyways, this is/was a reminder of always being vigilant because smoking can pop into your mind.
I didn’t act on it, but had to divert my attention. I will try to catchup on posts today. Wishing all a beautiful Tuesday, and to keep the quit. Nothing else matters.
I am so glad to be home and back with Neil and my Luna. See a picture of my girl…
Love and Hugs Colleen aka sweetp 1436 DOF
