A Week Plan... and Weak Plan....

[bridget5]

Good evening - this week has been very disappointing and I am the only one besides this group that knows that I have had one cig . on TUES./ one Wed/ one Thurs. and 3 today.  O-yes I see the pattern.  I can tell you 3 today because I left the office and was alone in my car.  You see the trigger is me in the car by myself ( which only happens when I go to work)  and leaving the office ( normally do that once or twice a week for meetings). 

I come home and do not think about  smoking - the smokes are right in the car- but I dare not go out - I could go out back with the dog - but the thought of having my son see me is just terrible.  I am being honest here - I need to be.

I feel like I want to be a MOn-Fri work smoker ( let me tell you that is what I did for 15 out of my 20yrs smoking.  Over the past 5 years I put almost all restrictions down - and started smoking in the bathrm.- which led to the kitchen, and it was over.

I want to not smoke any more - I do want to quit - I will commit to not smoking this weekend and see how I feel MOnday when I get in that car and drive to work...  I will pray and remain on here.  I will not give up - I will stay committed to reading the success stories and listen to the advice of people that I do beleive care and not judge. THanks for listening.

[aztec]

Hi

I had a cancer scare and my son thot he was going to lose me, I told him I would be watching over hime, We both got tattoos,needles to say it was a fluke.

I made up my mind I didn't want to die early and make my son cry again becasue I shortened my life with cigarettes.

I drew a picture of my tattoo and put it on the dash board alon gwith my familys picture.  It kept me from smoking anywhere I took the picture everywhere, especially in the car.

Hope that helps

[bridget5]

Thank you - I have his picture and reasons why not to smoke in my office - right in my face - I need to make another one of those and place in my car... I will try that.. Glad it was just a scare.  I love my only son to death and always want to be here for him - for a long time.   THank you for being so kind.

[Bonnie11.3.2009]

Practice separating smoking from your trigger (the car) by taking a ride for a short time and then later try lengthening the time you are in the car for a ride this weekend.  The only way this has any chance of being successful though is for you to destroy the cigarettes instead of leaving them in the car at your fingertips. Your committment requires action on your part and some discomfort for awhile until you are successful not smoking in the car.   Be sure to check out whyquit.com and quitsmokingonline.com for more education and inspiration.

Best Wishes!

[bridget5]

You are right - if the cigs were not there - and I leave my wallet at home- well then that works - I know....

I felt the discomfort for 47 days and it drove me mad with little to no relief last week and the week before - I have destroyed 3 packs of cigs- after smoking one - that is $21.00 that is sick  .  I was successful not smoking in that car. I know I can do it again-  I know I can.......

Thanks for the help ! I will check out site too.

[shytowngrrrl]

You can do it again Bridget, and you will!!!!

I understand that bothersome feeling....weakness.  It's tough.  I hate feeling like a slave to cigarettes.  I guess we don't tend to see addiction to cigarettes as a serious addiction because it is socially acceptable to some degree.

Hang in there....and I noticed your other post about how awesome this site is.  I couldn't agree more.  There's nothing like tons of people who are either in the same boat or who have been there to give you just the kind of support you need 🙂

[jackie6]

hey bridget i can tell you really want to quit so the best advice i can give you is information/education is key to successful quit you must get thru withdrawl first a great site for info is whyquit althuogh a hard core cold turkey site the other info offered there may help you with whyquit i was able to see my addiction clearly and come out on the other side FREE FREE FREE i was a 2 1/2 pack aday for 35+ yrs smoker who really didnt even want to quit i knew i should for all the obvious reasons but i really didnt "want" to i "enjoyed" smoking i started reading at whyquit and never took another puff once you get thru withdrawl it becomes much easier i recomend to everyone struggling to go to whyquit see if something there doesnt click for you as it did for me once you can look at your addiction to nicotine for what it is you will start to see hoe much easier quitting can be for example one of the biggest fears in quitting is the withdrawl how can i go my whole life when i cant even go to the store but that is simply not true we actually suffer from withdrawl from the time we put one out till we light one up again info like that was very helpful to me i hope this helps on the road to your FREEDOM i will save you a seat on the FREEDOM TRAIN the cost is free all you have to do is remember FREEDOM IS CALLING ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS SIMPLY CHOOSE TO NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!................................I have been quit for 2 Years, 5 Months, 4 Weeks, 2 Days, 3 hours, 8 minutes and 9 seconds (914 days). I have saved $9,552.66 by not smoking 50,277 cigarettes. I have saved 5 Months, 3 Weeks, 13 hours and 45 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 8/21/2007 7:58 AM...........give a shout if you need to we are here for you