Wow! Who would have thunk it! Not me for sure! A pack a day for 21 yrs! I know I haven't been on this site in a couple of weeks and I have deeply missed my friends....but wow, life is amazing without smokes. Ok, really - it's exactly the same....except I don't smoke! and that is HUGE!
Some mornings I wake up and lie in bed, and breathe.....and then I do it again, you know when you lie there all night and you wake up with the chest cramp that you thought was from sleeping wrong...??!!! It's gone. I suspect because my lungs are healthy now....!
I have been jogging for 2 weeks, wow! Talk about elation!! I'm not losing much weight yet, more so because I am "learning" to jog, the first few were longer walks and 20ft of jogging here and there, but last night I routed a 3mile route on google and ended up slow jogging about 80% of it!!! WOW, celebration! never ever would I have thought! not me! I always hated jogging and I had no idea it was due to lung capacity!!!
We went to visit the in-laws last week, and it was soooooo fun waiting for them to discover I had quit!! Wow, that was cool! When we flew home, we had a stressful trip and at the airport outside, hubby made a funny comment...."wow, wouldn't this be a time you wished you had a smoke if you smoked"......and ironically as a smoker I would have at that moment, but I wasn't even thinking smoking! soo weird!
OK - so let's regroup! for those that are just begining and thinking....ugh well she's just got it easy.....NOPE!! My trek was horrible toooo! My early blogs literally post my hell....seconds at a time on many days! My friends here (God Bless all of YOU!) are the reason I made it!
it was around 2 months, the 60 day mark - for me - that something clicked! It was time to stop thinking and wondering and dwelling on my smoking and "go live! go live as a non-smoker!" And when I stopped focusing on how hard it was to "not be smoking" is when I started really living as more as a non-smoker.
I don't know what tomorrow holds.....but I have tackled many "firsts" as a nonsmoker and certainly challenging, but really the smoking wouldn't make it easier. For example if I'm really stressed about something, having a smoke would NOT take away the stress. But my addiction used to tell me it would! that sucks! That addiction really sucks!!
When we got to Iowa a few weeks ago, it was really humid the first day. I had trouble breathing. It scared me. I don't really ever struggle with breathing, smoking or not smoking, maybe a bit here and there when I smoked, but not enough to scare me. And the humidity, well it really made it tough to breathe. I was frightened and for a moment, I thought I was getting my pay back for smoking all of those years. Fortunately, I learned it was the humidity. But that moment, reminded me again......I don't want to be a smoker. I don't want to ever "want" one again!
We are in charge of our own minds! The first 2 months is part of regrouping and re-learning life without smokes, without the habitual "I need one for this, and for this and for this!" but then we need to take charge of our minds and move forward......
the jogging for me.....is just a pure WOW moment. Complete WOW. I have space in my lungs. It's nuts! It's exhilerating! and it makes the hell part of the quit....sooooo very worth it!!!
Many of my friends are celebrating their 90 days this week and next!! WOW, we have made it!!! COngrats!!! Hugs to all your hearts!!! You are many reasons for my successful quit!!!!!!!!
YAY us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
