I was going to post on August 6 that I was 6 months into the Quit, but have been much too busy with the grandbaby. That day we were driving from Atlanta to Venice, FL with my 2 girls. The trip was a nightmare with blocked interstate and a 8 1/2 hour trip turned into 11 hours plus. The baby was fine - the adults were exhausted.
I could go on about that wonderful child, but will get back on the subject of 6 months. For the 2 weeks approaching the anniversary, I was a wreck. I didn't want to smoke, but was thinking about it all the time and had that edgy feeling back. I don't know what that is about, but did a similar thing as the 3 month mark was approaching, but those were big time craves.
I feel comfortable in the Quit, but also am scared that I will start again. I do think about and feel deeply that not smoking is a wonderful way to be. I am more relaxed about most things. The things that make me crazy did so when I was still smoking. I do find I am much less tolerant of others that I used to be. One theory is that I put myself first and won't put up with the crap any more. If I am strong enough to not smoke for 6 months, I am strong enough for about any challange. One of my heroes was a man here who Quit after a dear friend died of lung cancer. He had been a lifelong smoker. After being Quit a year, he set about to lose the 60 pounds that he gained and he did. Today I learned that he is smoking again. Yipes! That scares me!
I do enjoy commenting on other peoples blogs. Many people say they do it to give back and help others. Yeah, but I'm more selfish than that. I find that when I write a comment, it helps mne clairify my own thinking. Several people have expressed concern that I spend too much time here and its making it harder to forget about smoking. I plan to hang around until I no longer am getting things out of being here and I totally lose the fear of a relapse. Personally, I think losing the fear of a relapse would be a bad sign.
Thanks to all of you beautiful people who have shared the journey with me.
