I was a pain in the butt teenager who did everything a parent wished their child didn’t do. After years of therapy and working continuously a 12 step program, I found instead of being an angry child/teenager, I was a fearful child lashing out with anger and other survivor mechanisms. I’ve been free of alcohol, prescription pills, and street drugs for over 15 years.
Now, I thought stopping nicotine would be easy...just get through the physical part such as detoxing, cravings, irritability and anxiety then I’m good. So far, for me, I’m wrong.
Past emotions are showing up that I didn’t realize that I stuffed with nicotine. It started around 4 months nicotine free. Some days I feel those emotions I had when I was 12 years old before I started smoking - smoking was my first drug. Fear is at the height of the emotions. Fear of people!
I haven’t worked with a therapist for a little while, but I think it’s time to pull out the big guns again.
My question is has anyone else experienced or is experiencing this?
