506 1/2 hours or 21.1 days

[cheyenne7]

Sorry I haven't been here much...I do hop on almost daily, just briefly thou.

3 weeks!!!...I lost many a good quit at 3 to 4 weeks, soooo, well, I guess I'm just aware of that...

Although I think of them a lot, it's different...they are in the back of my mind, but I don't really want one too often...

I have good days and bad days as far as, for lack of a better term, depression is concerned...I don't really think it is depression, but something close to that...

Maybe being forced to deal with a few hard things without the smokes...and finding it challenging...I don't want a smoke, I know it won't make it better...but I can't hide my sadness over this event behind a smokescreen, so what should I do...hope I can learn to lift the pain this event brings me...feeling very heavy

I was almost not going to post because I'm not in a great positive mood, and I don't want to discourage anyone...believe me if my 3 wk mark was 3 days ago, I could have posted a jolly blog...it's just that this scar has resurfaced...I think I mentioned this back in November too during an attempted quit...

I am committed to my quit, no matter what may occur...because smoking is separate from everything else...not attached to everything, like the addicted mind would have one think...

Although that sounds strong, I am quite aware that one puff can/will ruin it all for me...and that scares the crap out of me...here's to hoping I never take that one puff!!!

I'm exercising almost daily, using that PF place I joined...

I'm eating very healthy (except when I NEED candy)

I'm really enjoying not smelling like smoke...that becomes a real big plus when the sense of scent improves...

Knock on wood, my sleeping has improved...I go to bed crazy early a lot of nites thou...

I lost 3 pounds...

I rewarded myself with a haircut, new sweather and scarf with the $$ I saved by not smoking...

I want you all to know that even thou I'm not blogging too often right now, I do peek in, and I consider this ex community to be a positive and important part of my quit...

Hugs to each of you...may your quits be strong!

Peace

[lois2]

 beleave in your self i do. that is what got me to day  25 days i know 1 cigg. will put me back to smoking, i don't want that.  one day at a time. if you want this  you can do this.  stay close to this site ask for help before you lite up. i know it is not easy but we can do this .

[cheyenne7]

Thanks Lois and Congratulations on 25 days...that's fantastic!!

[beamer20]

I love your blog, it is real and we have to admit that we have hard times and dig deep and keep going.  I find it is healthy to just be honest and put it out there. Good job on 21 days, I am on day 8 and I am taking chantix.

[cheyenne7]

Thanks beamer...you're doing great, you'll be surprised how quickly the time passes...reading the blogs on this site provides knowledge & strength...

Agreed, being able to just say what you're feeling or going thru is a huge plus to the site...and sharing it with others may help those who read it too...I know I've been helped by reading other people's blogs...

I consider this community such a blessing

Keep doing what your doing : )

[JonesCarpeDiem]

wonderful!

maybe you have a different perspective?

[cheyenne7]

Hopefully Dale...

For me not to cave right now means my quit is stronger than before, looking forward to easier times...lol, like who isn't...

My outlook on my quit right now is that I don't smoke...now, I just have to keep it that way, day by day by day...

[JonesCarpeDiem]

there you go.

if you can make it 3 you can make it 6.

when you've made it six you'll know you can do another 6.

when you've done 12, you only have 5 more weeks to be 130.

keep at it. 🙂

[cheyenne7]

Thanks Dale, that's a comforting way of looking at it....gives me hope : )

[Strudel]

Congrats again! You have the right attitude to do this! Great blog! 

[moody_9-18-13]

Thank you for sharing your feelings. I think too many don't open up and you may give others the courage to blog their feelings. You are doing this. Hang on, it's going to get better and better. Honor your promise to yourself when you made the decision to quit.

As Dale says, don't let them get near your face!