I will have 3 weeks tonight at 9:30 p.m., but I am having one hell of a bad time right now. I just got back from my cousin's funeral, and to be honest, I didn't think it would hit me as hard as it did. But it did and I'm fighting.
i am so sorry about your cousin, i know that your cousin would not want you to smoke, so do not give in to the thought. beat it and then look at it and say, see, you have no power over me. be free my friend!!!!!!peace!
I just am finding myself with not only grief today and now tonight, but fear because heart disease runs rampant in my family and I wonder if I could be next at my age, and also torment and rage because I have let myself drift so far from the people that I love and have loved so dearly in my past. I have so, so many memories of these people from the times of just barely being able to remember. It's just all flooding in and I don't know exactly how to shut and lock this dam of emotions down.
OK, Kelli. The first thing we are gonna do is turn that 3 weeks tonight? into 3 weeks tonight! Then, we are going to give you a huge round of applause for making it through the toughest 3 weeks any quitter will experience. You've got this thing beat. Just keep on with it. Take a nice hot bath and go to bed early tonight.
hang in there, kelly! three weeks. that's a looonnnggg time. that's more four times more time than i have. don't throw it away; it's not worth it. one of the things i learned today was to just touch my skin. feel how strong it is and how it holds all your parts in place. you are STRONG. your soul, encased in skin, is evidence. by touching your body, you ground yourself in the present moment, even when you're sad. you can then move in and out of difficult emotional states without living too much in the emotion. stay in the body and out of your head. i'm so sorry for your loss. i'm thinking of you. -bloom
Kelli - Now you GOTTA know how much I hate agreeing with hwc.....ok ?? But he's right...take a nice bath and go to bed !!!! You KNOW dang well...that smoking will only make you feel worse !!! You knew this day was coming...and you knew there was going to be grief..and tears. Is it harder than you thought it would be ?? Probably !!! But this is LIFE, Sweetie !! Not it's finest hour, but still life !! You gonna lite up every time you're pissed ?? Of course not !!! You gonna lite up everytime you're sad ?? Of course not !!! So - When is it ok to lite up ...... NEVER !!!!! You QUIT, remember ???? And your daughter may quit....be a good example...first for yourself !!! Get angry...this fricking smoking thing is NOT gonna get you again !!!! NOT !!!!! You hear me ???? Love you, kiddo !!!
Hi Kelli, So sorry about your cousin! I'm sure this is a hard time but 3 WEEKS!! That is so wonderful! Don't through it away! Don't let that stupid little tiny cigarette make you go back! I know I just quit today but the more I think about how I let this drug run my life the madder I get! You can take control and stomp that cigarette right out of your mind! Don't let it control you! 3 WEEKS IS GREAT!!! I can't wait till I get to this point! Saying a prayer for you. Robin
I knew to come here tonight, because I knew my people that cared would line me out and set me on the right path. It's worked and I'm ready to get on with the evening and crush out the thoughts of ruining my life. I don't know how to say this, I don't think that words can convey this thought; to all on here, I don't know what I would do without you guys. I'm serious when I say this. I came here KNOWING that you guys would help. I appreciate it. More than you guys will ever know.
Hey Kelli I just went through my mother dying a bit less than a year ago, and I know that after quitting smoking, I felt everything so much more deeply...so much MORE! That's part of what you are going through...and realizing you have let yourself drift so far from everyone? That is something I went through at that time too...it's shocking, its maddening, its sooo sad, and its natural. Ask yourself what you plan to do differently, as a tribute to your cousin. And embrace these feelings if you can, as a sign of the health you are moving toward. My gods, girl...3 week mark is hard for many people anyway! Rejoice!! Congrats on the 3 weeks, hang in there and celebrate that you are doing something about the heart disease genetics by quitting! You GO girl!!
Congrats on your 3 weeks !!!!!!!!! So sorry to hear about your cousin. I too had to deal with my Father in-law passing a week or so before my quit and I rem. what went through my mind was no way I can quit now it's going to have to wait until my family gets through this. Amazing how our addictive mind works. I kept my promise to myself and still quit on my quit date. Smoking wasn't going to help only make things worse. I'm proud of you for not caving I'm sure you are too. I have been to many funerals in the past 6 months and one thing we learn from death is how we want to live today. You did the best you could do today, you paid your respects to your cousin and family and you let yourself feel, cry. and mourn. You did great dealing with this tragic on your quit!!!!!! Keep it up 🙂 I'm only 3 weeks ahead of your quit and it does get better all the time. You owned that quit tonight and we're just here to back it up 🙂
Mrs. Reb........I shot some strength your way and I want to congratulate too. GREAT WORK on the 3 weeks. Remember what we talked about. These are the times when your quit IS THE MOST VALUABLE specifically because it is going to build a non-smoking set of memories as a response to one of life's TOUGHEST EMOTIONAL events. Hang in there, be sad at your loss, FEEL it for what it is, DO NOT SMOKE TO TRY AND PROVIDE RELIEF OR COMFORT! IT WILL NOT WORK! DO NOT SMOKE FOR ANY REASON AT ALL! I'm very proud of you Kelli and I'm very sorry for your loss........... sending more strength and hugs........Papa
Curly got her strep back...so that's where I was all day yesterday......I called out and stayed right here at the house and up at the doctors office.......more antibiotics....poor thing. You'll make it through, ................................IT SUCKS................ I KNOW....................Papa
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