3 Days to go.

[mehlisue]

I have read all the material and now am on my second read. LOL  I wish I had a photographic memory.

I was going to use nicotien replacements, but I have reconsidered this aid.  It will not allow me to be free of the drug addiction.  It will help my health as my doctor said, but  I would still be an addict.  But, his concern was for my health concerns right now and not breathing in the chemicals and not the addiction side. Doctors are not as intelligent in the phyco aspect of drug addiction.  Or just the sheer fact it is a drug addiction. When you do not have a medical community looking at nicotien as a DRUG ADDICTION, they only address the medical impact to the lungs or risk of cancers, respatory, and various body functions.

The emotional aspect to this drug addiction is to me much greater to kick.  I truly can not believe how much I have allowed my mind to be brainwashed.  NOt only into the life long ads to the appeal of cigs, but my own brainwashing that I was willing to risk my own life because I thought I could not live without them.

I truly believed that I was using them to help me cope in stressful times.  I convinced myself that I had no ability to do this myself.  Let alone GOD when I would plead for help to stop and that magic moment never came.  I have lived with doubt even of God that I was not worthy to help.  Even God can not help if I do not clean out the brain and quit believeing I am hopeless.   I did not realize that I have the ability and God put the tools in my spiritual armor already. I just did not know I could use them for that.  Amazing really!

Okay, the tool?   JOY!  Yes just plain old simple joy. I am being released from prision the 31st.  I am going to pull on the JOY of the LORD and my new freedom. No excuses, no allowing brainwashing to convince me I am going to die without that dang cig.  I have the help I need to keep myself under control. I can be as able as anyone who does not smoke to calm myself in stressfull times.

No excuse to mope, flash off in a temper, get hyper, nothing.  Just JOY.

Find the Joy in quitting smoking. It is the key to the ability to quit.  Look at all I have to live in front of me without the constant "cold" cough that I excuse all the time.

It is a marvelous day.

Now, If I need to be remined from my friends here, please remind me to change into a postive side of Joy.

I have a tool I would like to share, is there a place to up load them?

Thanks

[maggie_8-1-2010]

Oh I have goosebumbs! I'm so happy for you! Told you this would be an exciting time. You've really prepared yourself and your spirit for this quit. I look forward to seeing more blogs from you. Stick close to us. Remember to drink that water!

I know I always say that but it helps in so many ways!

Happy new year - smoke free is the way to be!

[mehlisue]

Maggie, you are the best.  I shall be your constant shadow. LOL Happy New Beginnings.

[jojo29]

Mehlisue.. congrats on ur quit, like you i never seen myself as a qutitter eaither, i started wen i was 12 yrs old, finally let it go at 53 yrs old,a yr ago in fact a yr and 1 month :)) we got to have faith in our selfs too. be strong and no the difference when to come here when its safe lol which for me will be never ,i always have my guard up, something i will do forever. ihave a strong feeling ur gona make this, i can tell this is what u really want thats great. keep busy helped me alot, comin here helped me even more, i was determined. i couldnt imagine life w/o smoking, thought i would be sooo lost, o wow, its not like that at all and i only wish i wouldve quit yrs b4, iam now stage 4 copd with end emphysema, waiting for some lucky lungs :))) happy healthy new yrs to u ,may ur 2012 bring on ur quit :)) Joanne a 40 yrs 2-3 pks aday smoker ..smokefree 422 days :))

[Patty70]

Congrats on your wonderful decision. Making that decidison and committing to it is all you have to do. When you know in your heart that you want to quit smoking and are willing to do whatever it takes to become free of addiction then it simply becomes easier.  When you have a craving you will be able to more easily brush it aside because you will not be struggling with questions like, "Slhould I or shouldn't I smoke." You have already made that decision and can turn your mind to other things.

I am glad you have read up on nicotine addiction, it helps enormously to know what to expect as you go through the process.

I hope you will blog often.

Welcome to Ex Land.