So I failed again at previous attempts and am willing to try again to stop smoking. I am on the patch again but decided not to use it while sleeping due to the vivid nightmares. Anyways, i really hope this time will be for good.
While on the patch I snkeak in a couple of Cigs a day. I used to smoke from 1-1 1/2 packs before and now its less than a pack a day. i am trying to change things up. I gave up competitive video games and picked up my workout regime again. Bought a new shortboard and just waiting for the water to get warmer so I can surf again.
So the urges from nicotine i believe is gone, but its just the damn habit of stepping outside for a smoke that hard to get rid of. I mean I don't enjoy smoking anymore, usually I'll try to smoke as fast as I can, since I don't like the taste or feel pleasure like how I used to 13 years ago.
I hope that this will be my last pack today! i am really trying very hard not to fail again... 😞
