So we've been using the nicoderm step 1 patches for 2 weeks...Frankly, neither of us have really been having cravings. So here I go with the bright ideas. We chose to skip step two and we bought step three. I've been using 1/3 of the nicotine that I used yesterday. I still have no cravings. I think I'm good. I've even been outside with the smokers at work and they smell--BAD. The rolling of nausea in my stomach tells me everything. I just don't think I could ever smoke again. Warren says they smell good to him. I just can't agree. I'm worried that he's going to pick it back up soon. I know I won't, but if they smell good to him and not to me, then maybe he's not as serious about this as I am? Hell, it was his idea first.
This morning I got my dog out of bed early, put him on his leash, and we started at a slow walk, then we picked up the pace and moved into a fast walk...it started pouring down rain. We stopped and I looked down at Rasta (he's a Jack Russell/Dachshund mix...My pride and joy--the best baby boy I could ever ask for) and I asked him if he was ready go home. He barked at me and continued walking even though it was pouring. Now, my dog hates rain but I love it. This morning, we were in agreement. It was the freshest rain ever...beautiful and cool. No thunder, no lightning, just a downpour. I'm in shorts and a t-shirt and my favorite "I'm gonna walk the dog" shoes. My dog and I have a special bond when it comes to walking...It's always a top priority. He barks, I comply. I guess you could say I love him. Anyway, so when he continued walking, so did I. And I let him lead. I do this sometimes to see where he'll take me. Today, he took me down to the river. We sat by the water and watched the dolphins play in the rain. Then, we ran the rest of the way back home. I was actually able to run for more than 10 minutes without choking to death...And I kept up with the dog. LOL Rasta smelled bad, Warren complained. It's just wet dog! (but everyone knows wet dog is just NOT appealing....) LOL So I had to bathe the dog before I even got a shower...Anyway, it was a good start to my "weekend" meaning I get two days off work...ahhhh
I think tomorrow Rasta and I will go to the dog beach for our walk...Maybe to see the sunrise. The best way to avoid thinking about smoking is to occupy yourself with something else. He was always my preoccupation, just now we can run together! I think he really appreciates it...And honestly, I appreciate the run too. I clear my head and my lungs...
Ooh..One more funny thing for the day. Anyone know that video game "The Sims"? Well, if you don't, it's a simulation video game where you create people and control their lives. You build them homes, get them jobs, make them fall in love, make them have babies. I've even make gay and lesbian sims. I'm just weird like that. Anyway, so I set up this house with 4 guys in it. I gave them a weird last name and created them. I built them a big house and stocked them up on money. Then, I leave them alone most of the day and go check them every couple of hours and see if they can occupy themselves or whatever. Anyway, I go back there, and there are two gravestones out by the pool. two of the sim guys died and their ghosts were haunting the other two live ones!!! The house is covered in garbage and most of the furniture has been repossessed because they didn't pay their bills. I normally build walls around one or two of them and let them die anyway because I like the ghosts. The ghosts terrorize the survivors in the house...If you have the game, try it. It's hilarious! A ghost popped out at one of the survivors and scared him so bad he peed on himself!!!! OH NO! Gotta go...Now the house is burning down!
