What might that be? I'll tell you in a min...
I dread going out much since I quit. It's gone so smoothly, and I really do feel strongly committed to it, yet I try not to push my luck in certain situations. But, I had a hair salon appointment that couldn't wait.
Off I went today to get my hair trimmed up. I avoided the two ladies out front puffing away, and walked quickly into the salon. My gal was almost done with another appointment, so I sat down and grabbed a magazine to wait.
When she finished up with the other lady, she walked up and said, "hey I need a quick break, want to come out and have a smoke with me?" (something I used to do with her) For a second I just stared up at her, and then the words just came out of mouth before I could even think, "no thanks, I don't do that anymore." She gave me the same stare in return, and a surprised look that was priceless. Then she smiled at me, and said, "wow that's great!..some day I'm going to quit too." She asked how long, and how did I do it, etc.? I told her about this site, and a little about how I quit, as she stood there looking more and more only mildly interested.
She went out and had her smoke. I could see her out there, and I watched her every puff; how ugly it looked, how she fidgeted now and then and how she self consciously turned away as people walked past her to enter the shop. It really is an ugly thing to watch. She is a beautiful young woman, but when she was smoking, her lips sucking on that cigarette, eyes squinting, mouth twisting, it made her look just ugly and sad...and I felt sad for her.
When she came back in and started on my hair I could smell the smoke on her. It didn't smell good, and it didn't make me want one, or envy her in anyway. I felt bad for her, knowing what it's like to be a slave to that. I don't judge her, I was her once only two weeks ago, and I know for certain, that's never going to me again!
The best part though was getting to say, "no thanks, I don't do that anymore!" I floated on cloud nine all the way home!
Whoever on this site that came up with that phrase, I thank you!...and thanks to everyone here for helping me make it through this first two weeks. I'm doing so good and I am so proud to be a non smoker.
❤️
~Hyacinth
