I don't know what my problem was yesterday. I guess it was a combo of not sleeping well, stress from work and financial pressures at home that turned me into the wicked witch of the west. I feel a little better today. Drinking my water. 1st day off during the week in a very long time. Feeling pretty depressed too
Almost 2 weeks free...can't believe it. They're still calling to me though...off in the distance...I guess that is what is frustrating me the most. It's 2 weeks and after all this hard work, I know I could still pick them up in a heartbeat. what a loser. Dammit, I want to be stronger than the pull of cigarettes. I keep trying to be positive, think positive thoughts yada yada yada, and yet here come the smoke parade...it stinks. I would love it if the weather would turn warm for just a day or 2. I could get outside for a little while. But its just been too cold. Can't afford a gym membership (husband is unemployed) and don't own any equiptment...what to do , what to do...I guess running up and down the stairs putting away laundry will have to do it...maybe that 'll help the depression lift....or publishers clearing house showing up at my door instead of bill collectors....that'd really help the depression lift !!! Oh well, back to reality such that it is...maybe i'll just go back to bed and pull the covers over my head for the rest of my......
