Okay, I am starting to get nervous. I've been making some small changes, but I keep thinking, okay, it's D-Day. No more smoking this is THE day... what will that be like? I imagine that I cannot have a cigarette right that minute. And I FREAK out. I end up smoking two back to back, and that continues for over an hour, just freaking out thinking about that day. THAT DAY is GOING to come, it is not just some day in the future that will never come, this day WILL come. And I am afraid of it.
