Hey family,
I think that one of the biggest parts of belonging to a forum like this is that once you've committed, accountability and responsibility become the next biggest parts.
That's why I'm blogging to let all of you know that I slipped last night and this morning. I really don't know what happened other than that "place" that oversees everything and that makes sure I'm ok just wasn't there yesterday. The cravings were strong and I had no fight in me.
Don't know, and I'm NOT making excuses here, if it's because I'm still not working, or if it's because Mom had to have a colonoscopy and a stomach scope yesterday (she's fine praise God except for some minor stuff that will hopefully be fixed with medication) or if it's because I had to stop shoveling anything that wasn't nailed down into my mouth and stop eating a lot. I tried everything. Thought of all of you. Prayed. Went shopping. Went for a walk. Brushed my teeth. Tried to lay down. Talked to Mom who's a constant source of support through all of this. Just don't know. Nothing seemed to work.
So, that being said, I'm asking for prayers from all of you and you know you have mine. Just gonna lay low today and see what happens . . .
Just had to share and let you all know. Thanks for your continued support.
Hope you all are doing well and continuing the quit!!
peace & prayers,
johnnyp
