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10 days...

becky3
Member
0 4 10
Gone by smooth...Right now, I'm a little aggravated, though...it's not bad. I can live with it. My patch came off around 4 this afternoon...it's been nearly 7 hours since then, but I'm ok. I'm just going to chew my stride and be happy. I do not want to be moody. I wanna smile. You know that saying, "Grin and Bear it"? If grinning means you grind your teeth for a few minutes then I'm DEFINITELY grinning. My husband irritates me. I get into a movie and he brings his laptop next to me and starts playing loud videos on youtube. See, he's learning to play the drums (and he's not good at it) and the incessant banging is driving me up the wall. If the drumset did not belong to a really good friend of mine I would've already dismantled the thing, beaten it until it was unplayable, and stripped every screw and nut and bolt by hand until the damn thing just fell apart. Then I would pour gasoline on it and laugh maniacally while it burned and my husband cried himself to sleep in the damn fetal position!!!!! My whole sense of peace and quiet has been disturbed in my house because of this damn drumset. ANYWAY....back to the story...He's watching loud videos on Youtube. I asked him to put the earphones in and he refused. Then I realized he was watching Drum videos...Just people playing the DRUMS! So now he's banging on drums all the time and when he's not he's watching other people banging on drums. I hear drums in my sleep.

His drumming, even now at 11:00 p.m. is still going on and I'm trying to sleep. When I said something about it he says "5 more minutes...please?" And looks like a little kid who you're pulling away from his new toy that he just got for Christmas. So now I feel like an uber bitch for having said anything at all. I still may destroy the drumset and apologize later. This is really making me wanna go to the store, buy a pack of cigarettes and smoke 'em until I feel calm...Until I can't hear anymore because I'm DEAD. Oh God, please spare me?

Fuck it. I think beer will work...No. NO...this is a job for..........VODKA! One good thing...I got a promotion at work and my boss says I'm very impressive. Stupid drums.
4 Comments
hothula
Member
ten days is huge, congratulations. I think just the thought of a drum set would drive me to drink. keep smiling is one of the best things we can do for ourselves. stay positive and strong keep looking forward and soon you will have 20 days, then 40 congrats again
mlynne
Member
Here's hoping you were able to get a decent night's sleep after all. You probably didn't intend to make your post a humorous one, but it did make me laugh a couple of times. There's a teaching that as soon as you announce you are This (fill in the blank), everything that isn't This comes rushing into your life. So, you announce "I am a non-smoker and I can be at peace without smoking" so what happens? The last peaceful thing you can imagine parks itself next to you on the sofa! With drums, no less! It's a great test to see if you really mean what you say, and from the sound of it, you do! Great job, Becky! Maybe you should take up a hobby too....maybe yodeling?
becky3
Member
Lmao...I definitely intended to get a laugh or two. Sarcasm is my way of dealing with anything that gets in my way. My friends and coworkers are getting an abundance of it!!!!!!!!!! I think they secretly like it though....LOL
doris_mccoy
Member