Hi there, I just joined this site about an hour ago after seeing the commercial ten times, i thought yea, I am trying to quit (unsuccessfully) so why not lol. I have 3 kids under 3, had c sections with all 3 kids so stuck in the hospital with all the nurses and stuck in bed with newborns I was fine, i would be in the hospital 4 days each time and not a single puff and then the second I get out I have to have a cig! Even when I would feel dizzy or sick to my stomach I would at leas take a puff and put it out but over the next few days just started back up again. My main problem I think is that every person in my family smokes...except my husband...who just gets annoyed and starts a fight when I light a cig, his main issue is the money especially since cigs have gone up in price. He uses guilt trips and tries to bribe me to quit which only makes it worse for me. I smoke all day every day, am out of shape and cant even run my treadmill for 10 minutes before running out of breath, sometimes I even wake up with my chest hurting and my lungs feel like theyll explode, I have found that the only way to relieve the pain in my chest is ummm to smoke a cig lol kind of like the hangover thing (i dont drink). I am in therapy for anxiety and stress so I am trying to better my life and I surely do not want my kids to grow up thinking its ok to smoke like I did. I am 26 yrs old and and have smoked for 10 yrs already, i started at 16, stealing my parents cigs, i was from a divorced family so I always had someone to go to bum cigs off or buy my cigs, now I see how wrong that was and what a bad example they made and I dont want to make that same mistake for my kids. I have tried to quit but only lasts half a day at most...my secret is to have my husband take my cigs to work with him BUT with resources like money and a car at home and time I just get over the hassle of loading ALL the kids to run to the gas station to buy another pack, theyve even made it that much easier since I have drive thru gas stations so i dont even have to go inside. Im at my wits end, we are always tsruggling financially and I spend probably over a hundred a month on cigs which could go to my kids college funds or shopping or going out someplace and then the guilt sets in again and I need to smoke. Im just here trying to find help for my problem becuase I really do think it is an addiction, I cant quit, I have every reason in the world to quit and yet I cant...my kids school even called to tell me she smelt like cigs and she had to come home for triggering asthma attacks in her special ed class. I even need to smoke when I talk about smoking or see a commercial about quitting. Im hoping to make some friends to stay in contact with since I have no support here in the real world. Heres hoping I quit for my new yrs resolution once again.
