I had a good day at work today. I feared I wouldn’t be able to handle it because I have been worn down by negativity. I did my job. I felt joy. I noticed how good I am at my job. I marveled at the fact that God was able to use me. I was set free of my self-pity.
I processed what what to do about my resentments and decided to do nothing, except try to work with the new people that have been hired. I still feel the same way about some of my coworkers but I didn’t obsess over it for long today. I gave myself five minutes to be angry then let it go. For some reason, I am not as concerned about the outcome with this hiring decision. I am looking elsewhere for employment (meaning I am researching what’s out there) but I will not jump ship. I have hope that things will get better.
Today I didn’t have that strong pull to escape. I thought of smoking when I was around people smoking, but the thoughts are not strong enough for me to call them cravings.