I am back at work. I’ve been struggling all morning with feelings of not wanting to go work, just not feeling right. My disease has been working on me. I was really nervous. Still am. I got everything organized. I don’t know why I feel this anxiety. I just know I would rather not feel these feelings. I am going to wait for these feelings to change. I am not going to smoke. I might end up posting multiple times today or texting my support group. The work I am doing today is what I’ve been avoiding: feeling uncomfortable, focusing on my nicotine addiction, putting it ahead of work. The cravings will go away as long as I don’t smoke.
