20 days ago, I would have lit up a smoke the second I walked out of the doctor's office. What I did this time was cry and call my husband. I handled it differently this time. I did it! For that, I am proud of myself and grateful for the tools I am learning to conquer the little monster. I am listening to Alan Carr's Easy Way AGAIN! I repeat NOPE. I read. I pay attention to what the Elders say.
I have 19 days behind me. 19 glorious days.
I had surgery on June 27. My July 3 follow up went well, but then the infection started again last Thursday. My surgeon is on vacation for the next three weeks. I saw the cover surgeon today for a wound check. I don't know this doctor. I've never seen him before. This cover doctor is recommending ANOTHER surgery (this will be the fifth in 9 months) to fix the recurring abscess and infection problem I am experiencing. He explained everything well, but I admit my head was spinning. I heard remove, excise, and re-sect.
Surgery is scheduled for Saturday morning.
I called my primary doctor. I need reassurance.
Most importantly...I did not smoke and will not smoke!