I just got off of a week of on call. It tends to be very stressful, even if no calls come in during the night. The possibility keeps you from sleeping too deeply. Many a past quit has died on the shores of the on call week. Never during the week, but before, fearful of the upcoming stress.
I laugh at that now.
I smoked because of Upcoming stress.
Darn it, I was a sucker. It was one of the many games my addicted brain would play to get me back on nicotine.
But I made it through the stress. And yes, there was stress. But I survived. And I survived without nicotine.
And yes, the urges are still there, not real strong, but there. But my comfortably and knowing I can resist them make the week calmer. I still do not feel normal. That will take time, I know. But I do not feel the need to smoke.
I just have felt kind of Hinky all week.
And joyfully happy at being smoke free!!!!
