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Feelings

Blog Post created by elvan on Aug 9, 2017

I had my head handed to me today by someone in a direct message.  I was accused of showing a lack of understanding and caring and of telling someone that I hate slips or something to that effect. That is not something I say.  I could not go back and read what I had written because the blog(s) had been deleted.  I NEVER attack anyone, not in my real life or my virtual one.  If you look at my profile and see that it says I smoked 9 cigarettes a day…that was the truth for the last few months I smoked.  Prior to that, I smoked a pack to a pack and a half a day…not that it matters because addiction is addiction and nine cigarettes a day would have maintained a “healthy” and thriving addiction. They DID.  Those of you who know me know that I did not have an easy first couple of years as an ex.  Things happened, things happen to everyone…the difference was that I wasn’t smoking, I was growing.  I was feeling things for the first time in a very long time.  I guess I didn’t give a whole lot of thought to how I would feel if I was attacked for something I did not do or I don’t THINK I did.  Falsely accused…that’s what it feels like, felt like.  The person said she is leaving the site, I guess, in part, because of whatever “tough love” I am supposed to have used.  It doesn’t matter because I will absolutely avoid any further contact the same way I would and DO avoid cigarettes.  Just felt a weird need to vent…maybe to warn others that THEY may be attacked.  It is why I responded “Thank you, Dale” to your blog on respect.

I apologized profusely for something I do not think I did and I also encouraged the person to remain on EX, promising that I will no longer comment on her blogs, no matter what they are.

 

Ellen

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