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elvan
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I had my head handed to me today by someone in a direct message.  I was accused of showing a lack of understanding and caring and of telling someone that I hate slips or something to that effect. That is not something I say.  I could not go back and read what I had written because the blog(s) had been deleted.  I NEVER attack anyone, not in my real life or my virtual one.  If you look at my profile and see that it says I smoked 9 cigarettes a day…that was the truth for the last few months I smoked.  Prior to that, I smoked a pack to a pack and a half a day…not that it matters because addiction is addiction and nine cigarettes a day would have maintained a “healthy” and thriving addiction. They DID.  Those of you who know me know that I did not have an easy first couple of years as an ex.  Things happened, things happen to everyone…the difference was that I wasn’t smoking, I was growing.  I was feeling things for the first time in a very long time.  I guess I didn’t give a whole lot of thought to how I would feel if I was attacked for something I did not do or I don’t THINK I did.  Falsely accused…that’s what it feels like, felt like.  The person said she is leaving the site, I guess, in part, because of whatever “tough love” I am supposed to have used.  It doesn’t matter because I will absolutely avoid any further contact the same way I would and DO avoid cigarettes.  Just felt a weird need to vent…maybe to warn others that THEY may be attacked.  It is why I responded “Thank you, Dale” to your blog on respect.

I apologized profusely for something I do not think I did and I also encouraged the person to remain on EX, promising that I will no longer comment on her blogs, no matter what they are.

Ellen

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Retired RN, worked ICU/ER developed RA in early 90's, unable to work because of brittle bones from high dose steroids. Diagnosed with COPD 5 yrs ago but sure it was there and progressing long before. Live with severe chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, had both upper lobes of my lungs removed in 2015. Struggle with shortness of breath. Work in son's cafe as a cashier 2 days a week to be around people. I am a people/animal person. Lost my home and three cats in a fire on my ten month anniversary of quitting smoking. Never thought of smoking, knew it wouldn't help anything.