I don't know what to write first. 34 DOF YEAH!
It seems to be getting harder. I have been watching Call a Midwife serious. Lots and Lots of smoking.
That may not be helping. Anyway I enjoy the show very much so.
Now, the pain, my husband says out of the blue last night; He will be taking care of me he supposes, when I become ail, stroke what have you... Cuz I want to die at home if given the choice.
He is resentful, he does not want the burden basically. WOW!!! I did not realize he felt like it was a death sentence!! To help and let other family help if needed. I feel rather broken, he made such a hateful comment last night.
So many health care options for us to tap into.
Care giving, for a loved one is one of the most difficult things to do. I cannot imagine not caring for him if things happen that way in our future.
I am at a loss for his immaturity, and lack of not knowing how to communicate or choosing not to do it with tlc.
I am so aware of the heart wrenching care giving, nursing home, being at home, long care, short care, hospice, resources. I just wanna smoke! I won't . My topic is not about having one, it is about how lost I feel not feeling loved often by my husband. Or ever these days.
Happy Wednesday Self, and to Everyone here.
