Tuesday Night

Blog Post created by anaussiemom on Jun 5, 2019

I don't know what to write first.  34 DOF YEAH!

It seems to be getting harder.  I have been watching Call a Midwife serious. Lots and Lots of smoking.
That may not be helping.  Anyway I enjoy the show very much so.

Now, the pain, my husband says out of the blue last night;  He will be taking care of me he supposes, when I become ail, stroke what have you... Cuz I want to die at home if given the choice. 

He is resentful, he does not want the burden basically.  WOW!!! I did not realize he felt like it was a death sentence!! To  help and let other family help if needed.  I feel rather broken, he made such a hateful comment last night. 
So many health care options for us to tap into. 
Care giving, for a loved one is one of the most difficult things to do.  I cannot imagine not caring for him if things happen that way in our future.
I am at a loss for his immaturity, and lack of not knowing how to communicate or choosing not to do it with tlc.

I am so aware of the heart wrenching care giving, nursing home, being at home, long care, short care, hospice, resources.  I just wanna smoke!  I won't .  My topic is not about having one, it is about how lost I feel not feeling loved often by my husband. Or ever these days.

Happy Wednesday Self, and to Everyone here.