I am feeling quite bipolar. Yesterday morning, I was flying. By the end of the day, I was crashing and crashing hard. I breathed through it, worked on my puzzle with headphones and got through the bad moment-- but this morning, I'm feeling that panicky feeling again. Like I have to escape. Like I forgot to do something important. Like I just got shocking news.
But none of those things are actually happening, so I'm confused as to why I'm feeling this way. Wait a second!!! It started after the Father's Day BBQ at my sister's! We were discussing the kids trip to Hershey Park after school gets out. I don't go to that so for me, it's almost two full days without my children. In the past, I took full advantage of their absence and spent a lot of time out back. Maybe I'm a little worried about all that alone time???
Plus, it's the last week of school so there's a lot of stress and hustle with that. Not to mention trying to learn Warrior Sculpt and setting up all my summer work...ahhh I see what is happening here.
I'll give it up to too much on the plate this week. In that case, to get through this week, I'm going to have to recognize first that smoking is NOT going to help me accomplish the tasks at hand. In fact, it will waste time I don't have. Then I will make a list of what needs to be done and put it in order of what needs to be done soonest and has priority and what can wait.
I already feel better. When I started writing, I actually couldn't breathe...