I was cutting down as I move toward my quit day of October 14, but now I am going back up. I cannot see my life without cigarettes! How disgusting is that to say! I never realized how much I look forward to them. I have health concerns mainly from smoking so I MUST QUIT! I WANT TO QUIT! Why does it have such a hold on me??? Please help me, guys, I want to be free of this disgusting habit....Please tell me your first steps!!!! I need encouragement and motivation.....HELP!