SoosannahK

Internal Conversations

Blog Post created by SoosannahK on Sep 26, 2018

These are the days that I enjoy. Low craves, getting stuff done, it's almost Autumn ....

I did the grocery shopping finally today. I normally do it on Mondays but we had enough to see us through for a few days (weeks). 

 

This is the internal conversation I had with myself this morning while headed to the grocery:

 

New Me: Where did my cool weather go?? Mother nature needs to get her crap together

Addict Me: Stop and buy a pack. No one will know

New Me: Where the hell did you come from? Go away

Addict Me: You're an adult and can do what you want. Go buy a pack

She was like

New Me: NO, NO, NO!

New Me:  I am an adult and I am going to the grocery, now shut up and go away. 

 

Then as if magic Bon Jovi's "Its My Life" came on the radio. So I serenaded my car screaming "Its my life" as I blocked out Addict Me and I went on down the road to the grocery. By the time I got there, I had silenced Addict Me, haven't heard from her since, pretty sure she is off devising a new plan trying to get me to cave in. But I am stronger than her. (Note to self: Add Bon Jovi to Amazon Music list)

 

I was pleasantly surprised when I got back from the grocery and started planning supper to find that we have enough leftovers for everyone to do leftover night. Normally hubby takes leftovers to work, or my son and I have them for lunch the next day so there is never enough left for a second night. So no cooking for me today. I do love cooking though, but it is nice to have a night off from the kitchen. 

 

Still waiting to hear back from my job application. Waiting makes me nervous. I just really wish they would call, email, send a letter, carrier pigeon, smoke signal, something. Fingers still crossed. At least they haven't sent a letter saying they don't want me yet. 

 

Hope everyone is having a great smoke-free day,

 

Susan

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