I'm more than halfway done with day 3. It started out with me feeling great and feeling super happy I wasn't smoking anymore. I went for a run this morning (I'm very slow now and can't run far but at least it is something). Then I drove an hour to an event, in a big city (I'm not a fan of big cities) and was around a lot of people for 2.5 hours. When I got back in my car after all of that to drive home, it hit me that I wanted a cigarette. I would say this is the first time during this quit where I actually felt like I was being deprived of smoking. Days 1 and 2 were physically harder, but day 3 seems mentally harder, if that makes sense. For example, on day 1 I cried a lot and was lightheaded and tired, and on day 2 I was exhausted and could not focus on work at all. I would almost prefer all of that to feeling like I'm being deprived because that kind of thinking scares me! I'm also just really tired, so I think I need a nap or to go to bed early. I am leading a group hike tomorrow and have to make another long drive to get to the hike. I think it's 1.5 or 2 hours away. I scheduled all of these things before I had planned to quit this weekend. Overall though, this quit hasn't been nearly as bad as I thought it would be. But I do wish cigarettes weren't addictive and we could have "just one," when we felt like it. I know that is not reality though.
