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Crying Is Human

RoseH
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Good Morning, Everyone,

As a lot of you already know, my brother, Eddy, passed on July 3, 2020 in a small town in Mexico...  I did not know until just a few days ago, when my cousin’s daughter sent me an email...  I have a way to go yet, to feel “normal” again [whatever that is!  LOL], but I am definitely on my way and I did not need to smoke during my grief!  Smoking does not help any situation!  It is an addiction to Nicotine, which slowly kills all of us, if we do not quit!

I will be two years’ smoke-free on August 12, 2020 and there is “always a light at the end of a tunnel” without lighting up!  And the only way to “get here”, was and is, to put one foot in front of the other and never buy, beg or borrow another cigarette.  Yes, it is difficult, at times, but it is truly the only way to literally “Become An Ex”!  Attitude is everything, and the support of all the fine people here makes us winners!  Many smokers, who have no support, are definitely not as blessed as we all are, here!

I wish you all a very happy and smoke free Sunday, and let’s all keep our beautiful and precious quits, ok?

Click on the link below, to learn about how crying is healthy and definitely human!  God bless all of you!  Rosemary

Is Crying Healthy? - Emotional Health Center - Everyday Health 

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I was 57 years old and smoking like a chimney in September 2003. I was also having medical problems and upon my doctor’s diagnosis, I knew I had to quit smoking. I was scheduled and admitted to the hospital in October 2003. I had a total hysterectomy and was recuperating, when a nurse found me upset in my room and she told me to try to calm down, and take a deep breath… I could not take a deep breath! In fact, I had to be put on oxygen immediately! I was terrified. A medical specialist was brought in, and that is when I learned I had COPD (Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease). My x-rays confirmed it, and the direct cause was smoking [since I was 15 years old]. I had double pneumonia as an infant, so my lungs were fragile, even when I was very young… I had to stay an extra week and they pumped steroids and antibiotics in my arm so I could breathe on my own, again. My nose got so sore with those oxygen cannulas in both nostrils. Hindsight is always 20/20. I should have never started smoking. However, peer pressure was awful when I was 15 years old. A few of my classmates dared me to light up and smoke one… I remember that first taste and how I coughed from the smoke. It was awful! But I wanted to “belong”, so I smoked until the addiction took hold of me! Back to the hospital room… I was terrified. I quit. I stayed that way for six whole months. My husband, Ed quit with me. We were doing great and then one day I said to him, “My life feels empty. Do you think we’ve got this quitting thing under control? Do you think we can have just a few a day? Before I could say another word, he was off in the car to buy some cigarettes… We both lit up when he returned, and I felt like my throat and lungs were on fire! I smashed it out and coughed! “I will never do that again!” But an addict’s lies are just that! Before long I was smoking over a pack a day again… The truth is that I had no idea how terrible the “addiction” to the drug Nicotine was. I smoked for another decade or two and each day I would tell myself that I would quit “tomorrow”. Don’t be as naïve’ as I was about this slowly killing addiction! Quit now! I would not be using two inhalers if I would have kept my quit way back then…