I am so over being frustrated; actually more like depressed. I seem to be taking everything personally and then on top of that feel sorry for myself. This has to stop ASAP! After my husband went into remission and I decided to quit the sickerettes (a term I have borrowed from someone here - I think it's brilliant), I became depressed when I should have been celebrating. Went to my doctor and told him my anti-depressants were no longer working. Doc changed me to Pristiq. When that caused nausea he added Welbutrin. I am not excited about having to take two medications to replace one but it seems to be working. My sister has been on this prescription cocktail for a while and it's working for her. I just want to laugh again and have that excited feeling about life in general.
I am reading my Bible daily and trying to find other things to do to keep my busy. I wouldn't mind working part time so I can have a little extra money to begin some new positive habits and keep up with my acrylic painting. I am on a schedule to work out in the morning, prepare meals, wash clothes and keep our home clean. I think a couple more firends in my life might be good. Our adult kids lives are so busy we don't get to see our grandchildren often enough. I want to go to church to meet people. OK - random thoughts pouring out now. My apology.
I am just in that stage of not smoking where my brain is running amuck with thoughts. Nothing seems to satisfy and I can't focus. So I practice breathing slow and this helps. Hope this feeling will subside soon and motivation will step back into my life.
WAKE UP EVERY MORNING AS IF SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN.
Thank you Terri, Thomas and a few others for the advice and friendship. Please keep it coming. God bless us all.