When I first started in this community back in January I felt that posting daily was a wonderful way to be involved and proactive in my journey. I still believe visiting this community is vital to my quit. Ever since I relapsed last week, I can't seem to find words to blog about. I am reading many things and making some comments while also clicking on the helpful and life buttons when I am moved. Today is my first day back. It's been good. I can't say that I have had worse urges, thoughts, or craves different than before I quit, just a lot more sadness. I have Allen Carr's book with me and have been reading it and writing passages or statements that stir me onto an index card notebook. I am hoping to add some of my own positive quotes. Just a little melancholy. Trying to find my voice again.