Trying To Find My Calm

Blog Post created by MichelleDiane on Mar 13, 2018

Okay.  I know I had it around here.  Where did I put it?  I can't find my calm.  For the past two days I have been looking for the calm person who has been walking with me for the past 70 days.  Where did she go.  I miss her.  She was eager, kind, empathic, soft spoken, loving, fun, engaging.  Whewwwwww.  Breathe she would tell me when I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin.  Treat yourself to something she would say to me when I was feeling upset.  Pray she said when I thought I could not go further.  Laugh she told me when I was too intense.  I cannot find her and I am very upset.  I am angry and out of sorts.  She means a great deal to me.  Maybe I offended her because I told her that she was kidding herself.  Maybe she decided to go to a person who showed gratitude for each day not smoking.  Or just maybe she has given up on me.  I came here today because it is the only place I know where she was happy to be.  She found everyone here helpful and encouraged me to reach out to this community.  Of course she was right.  So I am reaching out.  Has anyone seen her?  Very much not myself lately.