Okay. I know I had it around here. Where did I put it? I can't find my calm. For the past two days I have been looking for the calm person who has been walking with me for the past 70 days. Where did she go. I miss her. She was eager, kind, empathic, soft spoken, loving, fun, engaging. Whewwwwww. Breathe she would tell me when I felt like I was going to jump out of my skin. Treat yourself to something she would say to me when I was feeling upset. Pray she said when I thought I could not go further. Laugh she told me when I was too intense. I cannot find her and I am very upset. I am angry and out of sorts. She means a great deal to me. Maybe I offended her because I told her that she was kidding herself. Maybe she decided to go to a person who showed gratitude for each day not smoking. Or just maybe she has given up on me. I came here today because it is the only place I know where she was happy to be. She found everyone here helpful and encouraged me to reach out to this community. Of course she was right. So I am reaching out. Has anyone seen her? Very much not myself lately.
