Just Because

[MichelleDiane]

Good evening everyone.  I've been a little absent for the past couple of days.  I am still holding onto my quit.  I needed to come here this evening because I am anxious and cranky.  I've been this way for a couple of days.  It seems that I am in conflict with myself.  I don't know how this is going to come out, so I'll just say it.  I have trouble when I think about smoking and sometimes I do find myself triggered if I am reading about it a lot.  I guess I am trying to find a balance for myself.  I have missed being here, but also know that I find my thoughts going to cigarettes and that makes me angry.  I have received so much support and hope that I have helped others.  Peoples stories have touched my heart and everyone's words have helped me go that extra minute when I thought I couldn't go anymore.  NML is a rough place, so I've been visiting past posts about this to help me move forward in my journey.  To the Elders...thank you...To the Newbies (my quit buddies)..to all a good night.

-Michelle