Good evening everyone. I've been a little absent for the past couple of days. I am still holding onto my quit. I needed to come here this evening because I am anxious and cranky. I've been this way for a couple of days. It seems that I am in conflict with myself. I don't know how this is going to come out, so I'll just say it. I have trouble when I think about smoking and sometimes I do find myself triggered if I am reading about it a lot. I guess I am trying to find a balance for myself. I have missed being here, but also know that I find my thoughts going to cigarettes and that makes me angry. I have received so much support and hope that I have helped others. Peoples stories have touched my heart and everyone's words have helped me go that extra minute when I thought I couldn't go anymore. NML is a rough place, so I've been visiting past posts about this to help me move forward in my journey. To the Elders...thank you...To the Newbies (my quit buddies)..to all a good night.