Quiet Evening

Blog Post created by MichelleDiane on Feb 1, 2018

It's always nice to sit in the quiet at the end of a long day.  At one time I know I would be outside smoking.  Although I have a beautiful view from my deck I wonder how much of that time I wasted looking through smoke.  I'm in a somber mood now.  Not agitated, sad, upset, mad, or any other negative feelings.  I did have thoughts about smoking today, but did not act on them.  A couple of times they crossed my mind this evening, but I sat peacefully and focused on my breathing.  It's only been a month since I put out my last cigarette, but I know my lungs are repairing themselves.  I also know that this will take time.  Contemplative.  I guess that's a good word to use.  Contemplating how to move forward, how to be kind to myself, how to be kind to others, how to do all of the things I have wanted to do in years past; quit smoking.  I'm on my way and am grateful for this community.  Thank you.  You are in my prayers.  Good night.