It's always nice to sit in the quiet at the end of a long day. At one time I know I would be outside smoking. Although I have a beautiful view from my deck I wonder how much of that time I wasted looking through smoke. I'm in a somber mood now. Not agitated, sad, upset, mad, or any other negative feelings. I did have thoughts about smoking today, but did not act on them. A couple of times they crossed my mind this evening, but I sat peacefully and focused on my breathing. It's only been a month since I put out my last cigarette, but I know my lungs are repairing themselves. I also know that this will take time. Contemplative. I guess that's a good word to use. Contemplating how to move forward, how to be kind to myself, how to be kind to others, how to do all of the things I have wanted to do in years past; quit smoking. I'm on my way and am grateful for this community. Thank you. You are in my prayers. Good night.