Friends, how do you not feel like a complete loser? Okay, I am a winner!! I reset my quit date for Monday and am going to read a lot and get prepared. I have the weekend mostly alone and am still going to do good things for myself. When I had that first cigarette, I was totally convinced that it would only be a few. Even though I have smoked less than a pack, I am back to it. Craving, coughing, sweating, shaky, my injuries hurt more. YIKES!! Okay, I've got this! I see it now and really understand NOPE now!! I will hold my original quit date with the 491 days in my heart as I move forward, knowing I can do it again.
Thanks for all your support. I'm sorry I committed to not smoking and I have today. I've reset and am ready to start anew and not beat myself up.