Mad at myself

[Eyes65]

This evening I have been sitting here reading posts about cancer and it’s detection.  I know I have done this to myself.  No cancer but the threat of it because of my smoking...  I think I am so mad with myself because I chose to shorten my life because of cigarettes.  I know it is to late to beat myself up but I am being honest with myself.  I velieve in God and I know He Is watching over me but there is still a carnal side that is scared.  Please pray for my strength as I pray for yours...