Gotta quit or die!

Blog Post created by DemonaXL on Nov 28, 2017

My quit date is December 2nd.  I am really looking forward to this.

I quit everything else from drinking to other chemicals.  This has been the hardest thing so far.  I have quit so many times and failed.  But I am going to keep quitting.  I can do this.


So I had messed up and started a profile under [removed] but this one will be the correct one.

So... now I have to start all over again.  Can I tell that I am already getting nervous.  That mistake showed me I'm not a cool and collected as I thought I was.  lol


So  many reasons that I need to do this for.  It is just like when I quit drinking.  I had so many reasons that involved so many other people, but when it all came down to it, in order to stay sober.  I have to be the one reason I am doing this.


This is my life and I have screwed it up due to smoking so many times.  I have missed out on jobs because of nicotine testing.  I watched my son start smoking and while I did give some lip service to quitting, I was just lazy and said I didn't want to be a hypocrite, so I didn't quite to show my son why not to smoke.  Not one of my more stellar moments.


My mother and father always wanted me to quit.  My father who had throat cancer, used to point at his throat and say "this hurts" after Cobalt treatments.  How dumb can I be.  


I will make this right.  They may not be here to see it, but I will quit.  I will work with my son to quit also.


It's going to be hard in a house full of smokers, but I can do this.  If I can quit drinking in a house full of drinkers, I can do this too.


It's not like I have a choice in the matter.  Quit and improve my life and be an example to others or smoke and die.


Seems pretty simple when you put it like that.  It won't be, but it can be worked with.