I'm sorry Ex Community...I smoked this weekend. I had a reservation this whole time that if the IVF treatment my husband and I had been doing failed that I would smoke. We received the super sad call on Saturday that we are not pregnant and that night after racing, crying, bummer day I smoked. I bought a pack. I'm still smoking. It's disgusting. I'm bummed. I will try again but I am super devastated that it looks like we won't have children so what's the point if I live a long healthy life any way. Smoking did not improve my situation...but I guess I have a case of the f-ck its. I need to get my thoughts together but for today I am just doing the best I can. I'm sorry universe. It's totally sucky now that I know how awesome it can be not smoking...I hope I make it back here one day. Hopefully soon. Until then, thank you for all the tools I learned from the long timers on this site. Thank you for teaching me it's not only possible but actually pretty awesome.
