I can do it!!! I can keep my quit, and enjoy each day, without turning to the death sticks. I must keep in mind that even tho Brian isn't with me anymore, that my life does have purpose. Like the calm after the storm last night I am feeling much better today. So..........I'm going to focus on the positives in my life and get busy with living smoke free. Every day will bring it's own challenges, earlier this week, I just wanted to go be with Brian. Today I have a fresh perspective, even at 63 years old I have something to offer.