aarrgh was thinking maybe I will just disappear and sit somewhere nice and smoke a whole pack! Maybe two...and then just say nothing about it! However, I do remember just how guilty and unhealthy I felt each time I smoked. It is simply not worth it. I have to reiterate this to myself...and then I forget...it let's go...to maybe come back stronger as a vicious circle...but by then I will also be stronger!