I kind of got distracted this morning from my one year smoke free celebration . (See my post about risk of hypothyroidism and quitting smoking - my numbers are off the chart). I knew something wasn't right and contacted my doctors office two weeks ago for blood work. Actually went back for more blood work this week. Saw the results online this morning and called my doctors office. My thyroid numbers off the chart. My doctors office was just going to call me and script is already being called in. This is not how I wanted to celebrate, but even though I not happy, it explains how I've been feeling (depressed, fatigued, not sleeping, etc.) and weight gain. Since I've battled my weight my whole life, I've been depressed about it for months now. It's probably the one thing that could have caused me to smoke.
I've read about so many illnesses and psychological problems when you quit smoking. I makes it hard when we're "doing the right thing" and still have consequences. When you tell this to people that have never smoked, they think you're crazy. You're supposed to be healthy now!
Needless to say, I couldn't be more excited to have one year smoke free for the first time in 50 years. It hasn't been easy and now finding out this recent medical condition, has probably made it more challenging at times when I couldn't explain some side effects of quitting. I could never have done this without the wonderful support in this community. The times I screamed out for help, and someone was always there. I know those were the times that I have no doubt that I would have smoked during previous attempts.
I hope along the way, I've helped keep a few folks stay on track with their quit. I hate to see some people just "disappear", but it's always inspiring when someone has a brief relapse, picks themselves up, and gets right back on board. This seems to be easier for some more than others. I have so much admiration for those that have struggled more, but never give up. In the past several months alone, I've gotten to celebrate a number of people being inducted to the 6 % club. Those celebrations are such an inspiration to us newbies. I want to be one of them! There are also some new quitters that have been a real inspiration to me with their determination, positivity, and giving back so early in their quits.
I just saw a blue jay out my window: In animal symbolism, the blue jay resonates truth, faithfulness, and solidarity because they are vigilant in their tasks. They also keep the same mate for life, with is symbolic of endurance, patience, loyalty.. In the spiritual realm, the blue jay speaks of clarity and vision." How appropriate.
And Charlie hasn't destroyed anything in three days
What more could I ask for!
For all you are,
For all you do,
Thank you,
Barb
