Smoke-Free Stress

[AnnetteMM]

VERY stressed and frustrated right now.  I knew it was coming, tried to fend it off, but here we are.  I've signed a lease for an apartment I love, beginning June 1.  I've been packing, and organizing, and sorting, and throwing out, and generally having a grand old time.  I'm really excited about this.  But...

I haven't sold my house yet.  I have funds enough to cover months of double payments, and I've planned for that possibility.  And yet.  Just the very thought of having to do that is apparently more overwhelming than I anticipated.  I hate the thought of diving into my little nest egg.  But...

Once I sell the house I'll have an even bigger nest egg.  So it should all work out just fine.  I know this.  I've planned for this.  It's only been on the market for 30 days, and the average time in this area is 45 days.  I shouldn't be worrying at all at this point.  But...

The feedback from every person who comes to see the house is infuriating.  There's debris in the neighbor's yard.  The floors are all laminate and they want carpet.  No garage.  No barn. Too far off the road.  I literally can't change any of that. And so I'm stressed.  But...

Smoking is not an option.  Smoking isn't even on the list of options.  Smoking isn't even in the same galaxy of options.

Stress is a fact of life, and it's never permanent.  Life is constant change.  Just because I never dealt with that smoke-free before is no excuse not to learn how.  I pace. I let myself get angry. I grab a sponge or a mop and clean the DAMN house again so the DAMN buyers will like it.