I had a friend stop by last night and she had been drinking... She was drunk. I haven't seen her in a couple months but she knows I don't smoke. We were sitting around talking and after a while she was ready for a smoke. She pulled out her cigarettes and began to tell me I should smoke them because they're all organic i should just try one. I told her no I don't smoke. She then shoved one in my face, I could smell the nasty tobacco. She said "just have one then, so you can try it." Did my inner junkie hire this drunkie? This is the closest I've been to a cigarette in 26 days. I was very calm and surprised myself when i pushed her hand away and said "Erin I'm still fragile, don't tempt me. If i take a drag i will become a smoker again." She got the message and went outside to smoke alone. I didn't even realize how proud i should be of myself until I woke up this morning. I had a dream about it last night too, but in my dream I smoked and I was so ashamed of myself and was dreading telling all of you that I was a smoker again. I'm stronger than my friend-turned-nicodemon! I think ill keep my distance from her while walking through no man's land! Thanks for reading!
Amandaj
