I had a friend stop by last night and she had been drinking... She was drunk. I haven't seen her in a couple months but she knows I don't smoke. We were sitting around talking and after a while she was ready for a smoke. She pulled out her cigarettes and began to tell me I should smoke them because they're all organic i should just try one. I told her no I don't smoke. She then shoved one in my face, I could smell the nasty tobacco. She said "just have one then, so you can try it." Did my inner junkie hire this drunkie? This is the closest I've been to a cigarette in 26 days. I was very calm and surprised myself when i pushed her hand away and said "Erin I'm still fragile, don't tempt me. If i take a drag i will become a smoker again." She got the message and went outside to smoke alone. I didn't even realize how proud i should be of myself until I woke up this morning. I had a dream about it last night too, but in my dream I smoked and I was so ashamed of myself and was dreading telling all of you that I was a smoker again. I'm stronger than my friend-turned-nicodemon! I think ill keep my distance from her while walking through no man's land! Thanks for reading!
Amandaj
The alcohol impaired her ability to respect your quit. Good idea to stay away from her for a bit, and good for you for telling her "NO!"
Many days of freedom coming for you, young lady!
Nancy