this has been such a hard quit; lots of emotional rollercoasters to ride. lots of facts to face and sole searching to be done. But i woke up this morning full of energy and life.
I have no doubt that i will never smoke again. i am a non smoker! yayyyy
i have done the hard work, been down, anxious, depressed confused you name it. but i did what i had to do and today i woke up and felt like i just crawed out from under a rock.
No more shadows lurking in the back of my mind, no more anxiety or fear.
and something unexpected happened; in doing the work i have found that i have freed myself from other negative aspects in my life. all the bad thoughts that i used to think about myself, the self doubt, the thought process that life sucks and thats the way it is, that i need a man to feel whole, i really could go on and on.
WOW i am eliated, happy, calm and looking forward to this chapter in my life.
I could have not succeded without the ex-community. dont know how many middle of the nights i got on this sight and vented my fears and doubts, and ya know it seemed like no matter what time it was, some one responded quickly and i heard what i needed to here to help me go on
I dont know how to express my gratitude. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!. i will continue to stay very close to this sight in hopes that i can help others as i have been helped and to stay mindfull of my quit
